Last year i got pregnant to a playmate. It really was the most fucked up thing that had ever happened to me. I wasn’t on any contraception but I always worked out my dates and never had a problem. I also always used condoms with any playmates so there was never any issue of me getting pregnant. Until this particular playmate.
Because he took forever to come condoms were never much fun with him. And after hours of rather painful sex it was just easiest to get him not use a condom. I told him not to come in me. But one time he did, he couldn’t control himself and he came in me. I was not impressed but since I was fine date wise was not too concerned about it.
Then a few weeks later all the tell tale signs of pregnancy starting showing. I was horrified and dumbfounded, I couldn’t possibly be pregnant. I am always so careful and everything I do is always so planned, how could it have happened?
Well long story short, I was pregnant and I had to have an abortion. Unfortunately the abortion went horribly wrong and I ended up having to have emergency surgery to correct the mistakes made by the first doctor. Things were pretty bad.
I did tell the baby daddy but he was not interested, and not that he should have been. But he did treat me really badly, like I had done it on purpose. And then I never heard from him again. Which was fine with me cos I did not want to talk to him anyway and the one time I had text him to see how he was, he was so rude and dismissive to me, I got the message loud and clear that he did not want anything to do with me.
Time moved on (as it does) and I decided that I wanted to hook up with another playmate, so I advertised on the Internet. And low and behold who should message me but the baby daddy.
After I had given him a piece of my mind, he apologised told me he ended up liking me far to much and that the way he treated me was pretty shit and he was really sorry. He did tell me that he was keen to catch up again if I was keen. I thought to myself that it might be a possibility as he was actually kinda cute, had a big cock and was pretty good in bed.
For about 8 months we have played text tag – organising to catch up and then he would cancel on me. I got quite sick of it, and told him where to go and deleted his cellphone number. A couple of weeks ago I decided that I needed some debauchery so I emailed him, not expecting a response. Much to my absolute surprise he did acutally respond telling me that he would love to be my fuck buddy but with his hours and kids he would not always be able to meet up with me.
Anyway, surprisingly enough we organised a hook up yesterday which actually did happen. He came over to mine. When I saw him (it has been a year since I saw him last) I was horrified and so not attracted to him. He had gotten fat and was totally not attractive to me at all.
We spent a rather uncomfortable hour chatting away, with me thinking god how am I gonna fuck him? When he awkwardly grabbed me and we started having rather odd sex.
Unfortunately I am the queen of doing things that I really shouldn’t and I totally should not have had sex with him. This guy constantly wears a hat and is OK looking with his hat on but with when he takes his hat off, you understand why he wears a hat – they guy is like 30 and he has such bad onset baldness and receding hair line it is scary! It was actually kinda creepy.
And the sex was horrible. He didn’t even come and it lasted so long (over an hour) and I got so dry (cos how could i be turned on with him and with horrible sex??) that I actually bled afterwards which has never ever happened to me before.
I was so relieved when he finally got off me. And then I just looked at him and thought to myself, fuck, what was I thinking??
He gave me a hug as he was leaving and said to me that he really did have fun and that he was not available for the next couple of weeks but he was free after that. Then he said to text him when I wanted to hook up again. I looked at him as if to say what gave you the idea that I actually wanted to fuck you ever again, and then he left. And I was left there on my own thinking fuck me what have I done??